I’m pretty sure that no one wants (or needs) to know everything going on in my life. Suffice it to say, however, that right now I’m feeling sort of stuck between a rock and a hard place.
I blogged last week about being overwhelmed. I had a lot of really awesome people comment and offer support and advice, and I truly appreciate that more than I can say. And, I’ve taken some of the advice. I have a doctor’s appointment for Monday. I’m anxious for it, but hopefully it will give me a few answers that I need. Also, I’ve made little dents on the house, starting with our bedroom. My BFF is coming to visit in a little over a week and the whole house needs to be done by then. Normally I pay someone to do my cleaning, but because of other circumstances out of my control at the moment, I’m going to have to do it myself.
Those other circumstances out of my control are the ones that are really stressing me out. I’ve been dealing with a lot of anxiety over them. My hope is that given a little bit of time (and really, a little bit of time is all that we really have to give, because otherwise things can go bad quickly), things will improve and be ok. Don’t worry – my marriage and daughter are all fine!
If you’re friends with me on Facebook, you may know that my aunt was in a very bad car accident almost a week ago. She was at fault. She’s fortunate to be alive, but to be completely honest, the outlook isn’t very positive. I love her dearly, and she has always been there for my brother and I, but she got herself into a situation she shouldn’t have been in. She’s 78 and has been in failing health for some time. We love to joke about how quirky she is (our favorites are about her photo skills – at our wedding she spent most of her time with the lens pointed towards her trying to figure out why it wasn’t taking photos of us), but truly she is a very intelligent independent woman. Never married, she’s traveled the world and even now in her retirement she still travels. And drives. She shouldn’t. When she and my mom drove out to see us last fall, she went off the road and nearly rolled the car. This time, she crossed the center line and hit an oncoming car head on. That she only has a badly fractured leg and fractured ribs is a miracle. However, her condition is worsening.
Her heart rate is unsteady and her oxygen levels are poor. She’s a lifelong smoker, so she hasn’t done herself any favors. There’s talk of having to intubate her. My mom has some serious concerns and has already said that if the inevitable happens, that they will postpone any services until our trip there later this month. Needless to say, that doesn’t sound too reassuring. I’m just glad that the other people involved in the accident weren’t seriously injured.
So, I have a lot on my plate. But I’m doing my best to focus on the positive and fix what I can fix and not fixate too much on that which is out of my hands.
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Hugs, Katie! I know it’s easier said than done, try to just take things one day at a time. Some things are out of your control so it doesn’t do any good to worry about them. Just work on what’s in your controll.
Thanks Erin
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I’m so glad that the people in the other car are okay, but I’m really hoping your aunt turns around & gets better! &Hopefully this will be the wake up call she needs to give up driving & stay safe so that you all don’t have to go through all of this pain & worry again.
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Thanks, I appreciate it. My guess is she may never walk again so with that I hope it also means she is never able to drive again.
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So sorry to hear that
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I am so sorry the hear about your aunt and that it is getting worse. Lots of thoughts coming your way!
I hope your aunt is able to pull through–I think it’s very hard for seniors to admit when they just shouldn’t be driving anymore because it means giving up a lot of independence.
All those out-of-your-control types of problems are the worst, right? They say you shouldn’t worry about things you have no power over, but it’s much easier said than done!
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the out of my control ones are definitely the worst. The not knowing is the worst. Hopefully things will turn around quickly! Thank you!
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Oh hun *hugs* It’s so much harder when things aren’t in your control. I hope it gets better for you
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thank you so much.
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Yes, continue to focus on the positive. I’m so glad you’re going to the doctor tomorrow. And I’m so sorry to hear about your aunt. Thinking of you and your family. You all will pull through. xo
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Thanks so much Julie, I really appreciate it
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All you can do is pray and be as proactive as you can about the things you are able to change. Everything else is in God’s hands. Whatever will be, will be.
I hate that saying “everything happens for a reason”. Unfortunately, sometimes it’s true. Just remember that what you need is “the serenity to accept the things you cannot change, the courage to change the things you can and the wisdom to know the difference”. That prayer has put things into perspective for me more times than I can count.
I get overwhelmed with cleaning, too. It’s why my house always looks like a hurricane went through it. I have no help. I wish I did. LOL
I wish you luck and I hope your aunt pulls through.
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you’re totally right. And you are right, as much as it’s sucky, everything DOES happen for a reason. And my house is cleaner today
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Hang in there. Just keep taking one day at a time.
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thank you
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Hugs to you saying some prayers for you and your family.
God bless you!!
(((Hugs))) One day at a time. That’s all you can do.
thanks – you’re absolutely right.
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So sorry you’re having a rough time. Hoping your Aunt pulls through and has a complete recovery!
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Kristie I’ll keep you and your family in my prayers. Honey as far as the cleaning goes, your friend will understand if it’s not your usual tidy. She’s seen it clean so I’m sure she’ll be okay with the mess. What’s most important is you making sure to take care of yourself so that you can take care of your family.
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I’m thinking of you. You have quite a bit on your plate right now. I’m praying for the best in each situation you mentioned. I do hope your aunt will be ok.
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